....At least I know. I mean. I'm sorry. Nobody should have to go through that sort of thing.
[Being told in advance helps a little. At least he can be sort of prepared. For when he does feed from the other for the first time. Of what memories he might end up seeing, potentially.]
It wasn't until later, much later, that I experienced happiness. {Oh so briefly that it feels like a dream.} I was hardened for it, prepared for it. I only ever mourned over her. My wife.
I'm sorry. I'm glad that you got to experience happiness eventually, even if later.
[At least he has some idea. Has some sort of warning. Whatever he might see from Tantai Jin. That's fine. Better than some of his experiences. And at least he knows it wouldn't be the likes of seeing Charlatan.]
It's not meant for everyone. {Destiny can be cruel - as can certain deities.} My suffering served a greater purpose. My happiness was an unexpected blessing, given to me because of my choices and the kindness of a goddess. If you see her...
If memories with her are your happier ones, ones you'd prefer me to see, I can try focus on them. I'm better than I was at controlling what I see now.
[He tries to reassure the other, as best anyone could when talking about feeding from them, seeing their memories like being an Archiviste. If he could, he'd wish that he wouldn't have to deal with that. If he were just a regular vampire, he'd be less hesitant about others letting him feed from them. That people had taken advantage of that ability. Used him for it.]
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Date: 2025-12-26 07:27 am (UTC)[Being told in advance helps a little. At least he can be sort of prepared. For when he does feed from the other for the first time. Of what memories he might end up seeing, potentially.]
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Date: 2025-12-30 11:02 pm (UTC)voice
Date: 2025-12-30 11:18 pm (UTC)[At least he has some idea. Has some sort of warning. Whatever he might see from Tantai Jin. That's fine. Better than some of his experiences. And at least he knows it wouldn't be the likes of seeing Charlatan.]
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Date: 2025-12-30 11:23 pm (UTC)I think you will understand.
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Date: 2025-12-31 09:07 am (UTC)[He tries to reassure the other, as best anyone could when talking about feeding from them, seeing their memories like being an Archiviste. If he could, he'd wish that he wouldn't have to deal with that. If he were just a regular vampire, he'd be less hesitant about others letting him feed from them. That people had taken advantage of that ability. Used him for it.]